Thought Junior High School is fun, but now i think it's not. Or exactly, i'm not yet feel that because i don't have fun. Really, it just makes me bored, tired and crazy with all of my homeworks and tasks. It's too much and makes me very busy til' i don't have a free time to just have a life. TV times, friends time, hang out, or anything. It almost done makes me crazeeeh. I've just done my holiday 1 month ago but i'm kinda stressed of all this, so now i think i need holiday. Well, Mums told me i can't managed times. Maybe i do.

Talk about holiday, i know it's still along. But i dreamed all of my fantasies holiday. Do you? Since i 9, i want to be a backpacker beside my job. I wanna visit countries around the world and learn cultures. It pulls me up more when i watch Eat Pray Love hahahaha :)



I've visited Java, Sumatera and Sulawesi, and Bali Island in Indonesia. First, Java Island. I'm livin' there now.. exactly, at Cimahi, near Bandung, West Java. Second, Sumatera Island. I lived there for 1 year, follow my Mum and Dad for his job. Third, Sulawesi Island. I was born there, at Ujung Pandang aka Makassar. Fourth, Bali. Well, i'm sure many domestic people knows what Bali is. One of many reasons that make me proud of Indonesia is Bali. I admit it, it's really beautiful place and i understand why domestic people loves Bali. I wanted to visit Kalimantan and Papua Islaaand. I wanna visit nature place that haven't touched human's dirty hand such as the forest and the beach.. i know there many beautiful places in Indonesia.

The farest place i've ever visit is Malaysia and Singapore when i was 4th grade. I just remember i visited Genting Highland, Petronas, Johor, Penang, etc. What makes me envious to them is because.. they're very orderly, discipline and high awareness to their environment and signs on the road.. so rarely i found congestion there.

What makes me excited too.. Mum invites me to trip to Spore again with my family (except Dad -__- )!! Backpacker-ing :)) well i can't wait for that.. the plan is on January or February. That's what called holiday! You know what i do every weekend?

I want to have free time that doesn't make me bored. Maybe do crazy photograph somewhere else is good idea (once a life, it must done before i'm old and getting boring). I wanna have a free time that i can do activities i never did.. sounds thrilling and fun! Do tattoo temporary on my hands and plays, run, jump, crazy things on beach.. backpackering.. that's life and have been my obsession.



Someday, when i getting adult and have a job, i promise i'll having a trip to Paris!


Grammar 100% fail

Eventhough being commited started out with being in love, these 2 things are different, very very different. For me, after I experienced those things, I began to learn that being in love is so much easier, and HAPPIER.

There are lots of things you can get by being in love. But when you decided to be commited, you’ll lose few things.

For those who had been in love before, you know those mischievous butterflies right ? The feeling of something you can’t describe. So happy your heart is pumping too fast and the blood racing through your veins but your body is cold as the cullens, and hundreds of invisible butterflies trying to get out from your stomach. They try getting into your respiration system but they can’t make it. They’re hitting your belly button, but it won’t open. They’re panicking, they’re flapping their wings causing a tiny windstorm inside your stomach.

Pretty awful isn’t it. But surprisingly, it feels good. It makes you smile. You don’t want to smile, you try to hold the tips of your lips but you can’t. You try to be cool, but you can’t stand to giggle. Your face is red. You want to grab your cheeks and pinch it down but your smiling face makes your eyes narrowed. And you feel like dying for holding your laugh. It’s like there’s this amazing feeling, if there’s a pillow you would cover your face with it and scream like a freaking monkey.

And when we are in love, our goal is to be commited to the person we love, right ? nothing else.

But when we are in a relationship, what is our goal ? I’m talking about teen relationship, especially long term relationship. What is out purpose ? Are we going to get married ? What is the meaning of forever ? What is the point of imagining things like “our dream house” or ” how will our children look like” and all ? I know it’s every girls’ dream and I actually like it too. But it’s only going to hurt us more. We are teenagers, we fall in love-we get in a relationship-we get bored- we fall out love and it will keep going on because it’s a cycle of finding our trueself. Don’t hope too much. It will only hurt you worse.

We are teenagers, we search our freedom in different way, in our own way. We are, more than you could imagine, FREE. We are SO free they even make places like SCHOOL to restrain our freedom.

Being commited is about giving ourselves for someone. Are you ready for that ? We must to be ready to lose our freedom. We must share our time, we must remember to keep contacting each other, we must let them know what we are doing now, we must have time together just the two of us, we must do something that represent our feeling, we must ready for everything because she/he could break your heart anytime and your relationship could end any-fucking-time.

It’s up to you, but which one do you like ?

I, with all the little experiences, decided to be in love, and just being in love. Being commited means that it will, must end someday. But being in love ? You will feel those butterflies, you will feel happy everytime you think of her/him, and oh this is the one : little things mean so much bigger.

Getting in the same group in class.
Talking.
Borrowing pen.
Accidentally sit on the same desk.

Those are simple things that give you different meaning only when you are in love.
Yes, little things that matters.

Happy loving!

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THIS.

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