i thought i was becoming an asshole for feeling empty (and disgrace) despite my whole life runs perfectly.

i assumed it's sourced from the way i live. i live everyday in order, constantly. nothing excites me at all. life doesn't excite me these past months.

i wanted to be a child (again). i mean; when i was kid, i easily got excited by small things. it's horrible for being a grown up. everything seems so boring.

i live in routines. but i can't find a way to get out from my comfort zone.

i need to meet someone new. i need to go to new places and get lost and discover the true me.

i need to found myself.

efffffff i think i'm just being a real teenager who got lost and try to find themself.