but i'm glad i have someone i always can rely on during my ups and downs, during my late night thoughts, during indomie session at the nearest warkop, before and after class, and during my sleepless nights studying perdis for UAS.

i always wanted to write something about him, but somehow i couldn't.. you left me no words, D. even after these whole months.

kamu pernah nggak ketemu orang yang somehow bikin kamu ngerasa emotionally naked?

that's exactly how i feel whenever i'm with him.

23 minutes is how long it takes for me to find a word that your kiss left me that evening.

it left me none.

except lots of feelings and.. more lots of feelings.

and in all of sudden, for the first time that i could remember,

i was emotionally naked.

the thing about travelling

i don't travel much. truth be told, most of the time, i can't afford it by myself. but my mind sure does (travel). and when it comes to imagining, i'd like to add some great musics. whether it is the crowded jaipur, hecticness of shibuya crossing in the morning, or the magnificent jökulsárlón, there's always great music to accompany the wild mind of mine.

and here's mine.

1. Meridian - ODESZA

2. Ganja - Ooyy

3. Places We Don't Know - Kasbo

4. Starlight - Jai Wolf

5. Higher Ground (feat. Naomi Wild) - ODESZA

6. Rocketeer - Far East Movement

7. Always - Panama
8. Truth - Shallou
9. Reverie (feat. King Deco) - Illenium
10. Daydrean (feat. Joba) - Medasin

as i'm growing older, i realized that being in a relationship isn't always about love and lust and happy things. i was so naive back then. took some time for me to understand that there are major differences between being in love and being in a relationship. being attached: it's about commitment, letting someone live into your boundaries and contribute in every decision you make in your life, to bear each other's vision, traits, lifestyle, perspective, and values. those things aren't always easy to be accepted. i was taught that the idea of being attached with someone is overrated; it's deliberating. people taught me how to avoid, refuse, or end a relationship; but nobody taught how to unlove and unfeel things.