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week 7: my childhood memories

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There's one special thing about my childhood i will never forget: i happened to have the greatest bestfriend ever, Mbah Kakung.

I just got a chance to see 2 out of 4 of my grandparents. Mbah Sumi, nenek dari keluarga papa dan Mbah Kakung, kakek dari keluarga mama. Mbah Sumi and I weren't that close, we just met once or twice a year kalo lagi lebaran atau liburan aja. Tapi dengan Mbah Kakung, we happened to live under the same rooftop for several years sampai Mbah Kakung meninggal.

Mbah Kakung was a very sweet, kind, and thoughtful person. We were so close back then. I often slept on his bed. We used to watch soccer on tv together, though i didn't understand any single thing about soccer. Mbah Kakung shared his bed with me when i was overslept, he even comforted and soothed me down when i was scared in the middle of the night due to the cats' fight. I remembered i peed myself on the floor and Mbah Kakung was cover me up from my mom. Mbah Kakung loved me so much, and so did i. Apparently time flies and his health got worse, he barely walk meskipun udah pakai kruk. I remember that one time when it was just him & the-4th-grade-me. Mbah Kakung mau ke toilet dan kebetulan nggak ada orang dewasa yang bisa mapah Mbah Kakung buat jalan ke toilet. So there was I, helping him to walk, sambil ngeringis nahan bobotnya Mbah Kakung, nggak sanggup. I love him so much that i became so emotional watching him getting old and weaker. All i could think was i need to be strong for him since i was the only person he can depend on that day.

Mbah Kakung had a stroke and survived diabetics for 10 years. He went a lot of critical times when i was in the 5-6ish grade. Mbah Kakung lebih banyak istirahat dan punya 'temen' baru sendiri sejak itu, Suster Gita dan Bibi. Mbah Kakung even got trouble with talking that he can't speak properly. Mbah Kakung bahkan sempat lupa cara sholat. My heart hurt so much seeing him in pain.

Our last meeting wasn't going well. I was hurrily preparing stuffs for mudik on the second day of Idul Fitri that i forgot to say goodbye to Mbah Kakung when i was left. And the biggest mistake of mine was having thoughts that 'ya udah deh, nanti juga ketemu lagi sama Mbah'.

I never had that chance.

Mbah Kakung passed away the night right after we arrived in Slawi. When i heard of it, my heart explode. It burst. It was broken. It tore apart into pieces

My bestfriend just had gone forever, and i didn't have a chance to say goodbye for the last time.

As i'm writing this post, tears are streaming through my eyes. The pain and the regrets still exist, sampai sekarang.

... I miss him so much.

Mbah Kakung; he was the sweetest childhood memories of mine that i treasured. He is forever my bestfriend and i'm glad to have spaces for him in my heart.




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Week 6: Ten Years From Now...

7:50 PM

I just realized that i used to post 52 week blog challenge, which has been abandoned since long time ago. My blog, my rules. And technically i've never made any rules, so whatever.

/// TIME MACHINE ///




Either i might be dead already or I'll be 28, which will be less than 3 months away from my 29th birthday. I might be healthy or ill. I might have a husband already or still trying to find the right one, being a hopeless romantic. I might be having children already, or pregnant, or still hate toddlers. If i already married and have babies, then the babies' name might be something among Aero, Aldebaran, Altair, Alathfar, Abraham, or it happened to be the name i've never think of when i was 18.

I might be running my own business or being a psychologist, or might be none of them, something that i've never think of when i was 18. I might still love to take pictures or gave up on them already. I might still listening to majestic casual or my music sense have changed 180 degree. I might still love Brendon Urie or probably dislike the old himself already.

I might be living somewhere far away from Bandung, something that i always wanted to do when i was 18, or might be glued forever here. I might be seeing my school friends or i might be turn out hating them. I might still be a cynical person or successfully drove my perspective about life optimistically.

On 28, i might be already traveled myself to Japan, living my teenage dream or still trying to save money to go there, being a corporate slave. I might be still using blogspot or finally brave enough to move to another hosting because it still sucks. I might still order earl grey or chai tea latte to starbucks or americano might will be my usual drink.

Ten years from now... i might be famous for something or i might be a loser. I might be loving the way i am and the way i live, or i might be trapped. I might discover my true calling or i might be wandering to find it. I might be still searching for something that missing in my life, or i might already found it, and be complete.

Ten years from now. Everything will change. At least i hope so.

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week 5: my favorite holiday

6:28 PM

It was in 2010/2011. Akhir tahun waktu itu, aku bareng keluarga keliling Jawa & Bali selama 2 minggu penuh kalau nggak salah, lewat perjalanan darat. Yes, it sounds crazy & tiring (but believe me, rasanya jauh lebih c a p e k dari kedengerannya). Tujuan awal kita asalnya ke Bali. But it turned out we ran out of tickets (since it was holiday season) dan kita nggak mau ngejedog aja di rumah gabut! Jadinya kita mutusin buat ke keliling Jawa & Bali. Kita belom tau first stop kita bakal dimana sampai kita mulai jalan.

First stop kita ada di Slawi, 'kampung halaman' keluarga aku tiap lebaran. We picked up our cousin to join us. Nggak lupa tradisi makan sate tiap ke sana. We really can't resist to eat sate Bu Tomo because it is simply the best in the world :' lebay? Iya. Tapi emang faktanya seenak i t u. Hfff di Bandung gak ada sate yang seenak itu.

Second stop. Semarang. Mampir ke rumah sodara, wisata kuliner, nyobain tahu petis, ke lawang sewu, makan makan makan dan makaaan...
Third stop. Malang! Nggak ketinggalan nyicipin Bromo dan segala perintilannya. Wisata kulinernya juga gak ketinggalan. Rawon setan :)
Fourth stop. Blitar. Nggak tau mo ngapain. Yang jelas waktu itu kesana mampir ke makam Soekarno.
Fifth stop. Bali, walaupun sebelumnya sempet ngelintasin Banyuwangi dan lain lain. Sempet enek sama pecel sih (mostly orang Jawa Timur kulinernya pecel). Yaaa keliling keliling Bali setelahnya. From one beach to another. From beach to mountain.
Sixth stop. Jogja! From one temple to another. From Borobudur to Prambanan.  From Kraton to Malioboro. Udah gitu makan, makan, dan makaaan...
Seventh stop. Home.


It took 1-2 weeks for us to explore those places. Sampe kadang punggung pegel duduk berjam jam di mobil, capek ketawa gara gara ngobrol, capek komentarin orang di jalan, capek berantem gara gara hal sepele. Overall, bisa dibilang itu liburan terfavorit. Karenaaa... ya nggak ada karena. Pokoknya favorit. Because i was happy, and so does everyone.

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Week 4: Top 5 Places I'd Like To Visit

7:43 PM

Hola! Udah lumayan lama juga ya nggak ngepost di blog? Hectic banget akhir akhir ini, sampe ngerasa butuh lebih dari 24 jam dalam sehari. That maybe sounds sok sibuk abis hoho tapi emang bener! I even consume redbull or caffein sometimes.. which is jenis konsumsi  yang bukan 'aku' banget kecuali terpaksa, dan waktu luang tuh kerasa seberharga itu buat bisa dipake tidur.

Padahal sibuk main roller coaster tycoon yang setelah sekian lama diinstall lagi.


But here i am, nulis utang 52 week challenge. I guess i didn't play the challenge right ya? Hehe.. it supposed to be posted every week, bukan beberapa post dalam satu waktu. Ah gapapalah. Better late than never.

So. These are the top 5 places i'd KILL to visit.

1. Serengeti National Park, Tanzania

When i told this to my friend, all of them were like "What? Tanzania.. as in Africa?" HAHA yaiyalah dodol Tanzania mana lagi kalo bukan di benua Afrika! Weird, huh? Commonly people wants to go to Paris or London or the other 'hip' places but to me.. that would be South African's savanas i'd like to kill for. Secara selama ini cuma nonton kehidupan-kehidupan binatang di natgeo doang.. jadi pengen banget ke Afrika sana! Kebayang gak sih gimana rasanya safari beneran di tengah savana yang luas mampus trus ngeliat ribuan zebra nyebrang di depan mata, ato liat singa gelantungan di pohon, liat wildebeest asli, atau gazelle.. HUHU MAU MAK. Apalagi kalo sunset! HUHU seriously, people, that's way more exotic than Paris. Adem banget kayaknya kalo bisa glamping di sana. Away from the crowds. No signal. Just you and me. Yes, i'm looking at you, dear zebras (oh and the lions, the giraffes, the elephants, and the other animals). Long before Taylor Swift's Wildest Dream video released, i've imagined them already in my head. Ngeliat Taylor Swift pake the yellow stunning dress in my kind of dream situation & dream place, i was like speechless :')


Well, impian ini diperparah sama pengalaman liburan Putri Tanjung safari di Afrika bareng keluarga yang dia ceritain di Gogirl! plus ceritanya Trinity di novel The Naked Travelernya! Seri novel yang keberapa, aku lupa. Entah di Naked Traveler 2 atau 4. She mentioned about all the stuffs i had been imagine and it made me even crazier for wanting to visit Africa.  Tunggu aku, ze(bro)! Tunggu aku, Tanzania! :')


2. Petra, Jordan

Pernah nonton Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen (yang kedua)? Inget scene waktu mereka nemu Tomb of the Primes di balik dinding bangunan bersejarah yang supergede? Yep, that prehistoric archeological building is Petra, as in Jordan. Again, Trinity bilang waktu dia kesana, Petra itu warnanya dusty-pink/rosy, makanya disebut pink city. But as we can see, foto-foto yang aku dapet di google nggak terlalu ngerefleksiin warna pinknya. But, still.. everytime i see it, i always speak to myself "You have to be there, someday Cha! You n e e d  to be there and witness the awesomeness."

source: bucketlistly.com

3. Vatican City, Italy

If i had the opportunity to go to Italy, my first stop wouldn't be the Colloseum in Rome, tapi gereja-gereja indah dan museum Vatikan! Bahkan dari foto aja St. Peter Basilica tuh indah banget.. super indah. I'd crave to visit Vatican Museum and Sistine Chapel too. Pengen banget liat mahakarya Michaelangelo di langit-langit Sistine Chapel. Konon, Michaelangelo ceiling's ini menggambarkan tentang The Last Judgement atau hari kiamat. Michaelangelo ngelukis dinding langit ini 4 tahun. Gimana ngelukisnya ya..




4. Hagia Sophia, Turkey

Selain pengen tau rasanya naik balon udara di Capadoccia, nyicipin turkish delight as seen in Narnia, atau mampir ke Blue Mosque yang nampil seuprit di film Taken 2 sekaligus appeared di lokasi editorial photoshootnya fotografer kesayangan, pengen banget masuk dan ngeliat live Hagia Sophia. Huhuhuhu pasti bagus banget! Hagia Sophia ini apppeared juga di film 99 Cahaya di Langit Eropa dan INDAAAAH BANGET. Jadi bangunan ini dulunya adalah gereja yang diubah jadi mesjid oleh Turki Utsmani yang waktu itu baru menjatuhkan Konstantinopel (dan aku langsung automatically inget materi sejarah wajib tentang ini--jatuhnya Konstantinopel, yang melatarbelakangi imperialisme dan kolonialisme kuno HOHO GILA MASIH INGET AJA WOOHOO APPLAUSE)(apasih), makanya interior di dalamnya bernuansa mesjid dan gereja sekaligus. Makanya, ada lafadz Allah dan mozaik Yesus sekaligus di Hagia Sophia. Duh pengen bangeeet kesanaaa... like i wonder what does it feel like to reminisce history di bukti sejarah itu sendiri. Amajing.


5. Japan

No need to specify the place, because as long as it Japan, kemanapun mau!! Duh, as a manga-lover dari jaman SD, rasanya Jepang tuh dream place banget. Tiap baca Gals!, langsung pengen ke Harajuku, Shibuya, Ginza, sama gedung 109 yang appeared berkali-kali di komiknya. Cuma jaman sekarang katanya tren ko-gal as pictured di komik Gals! dengan segala kehebohan pakaiannya yang kebagi jadi berbagai macam genre udah ketinggalan. ISeinget aku emang gaya pakaian di Harajuku tuh kebagi jadi beberapa genre gitu, kayak gothic-lolita yang pakaiannnya ala-ala grunge emo, lolita yang bajunya feminin abis (kayak boneka gitu iya gak sih?), oohiya dan ada gonguro!! Kalo di komik Gals!, gonguro tuh sekelompok cewek kulit hitam yang dandanannya mencolok abis kayak bling-bling gitu haha. Duh rame bangeeet Gals! tuh :') 

Trus pengen ke Osaka juga, cobain ramen bening yang katanya superenak yang kata Heiji di Detective Conan di Osaka. Ke Observation Towernya, ke kuil-kuilnya. Ke Hokkaido cobain ski di sana. Ke museum bom Hiroshima. Ke Gion liat geisha yang asli. Makan the real sushi di Tsukiji Market. Ke Tokyo Tower! Nyobain jajanan di Nakamise! Ke Skytree! Naik Shinkansen! Nyobain onsen! Pengen nyebrang jalan bolak balik berkali kali di Shibuya! Pengen ke 109! Cobain hanami musim semi liat sakura! Pake yukata trus dateng ke festival musim panas, nyobain game-game (kayak mancing ikan ato nembak nembakin hadiah), makan soba, makan permen apelnya, makan takoyakinya, nonton kembang api musim panasnya! Pengen dateng ke kuil pas tahun baru! Pengen beli atsuzoko yang lucu-lucu di Jepang! Pengen liat festival hari anak dan ngeliat anak-anak Jepang nyusun boneka kerajaan! Pengen nyobain upacara minum teh! Pengen nyobain Ya Allah. Pengen. Pengen. Pengen. Pengen. Ah..  :(



Can i mention more than five? Hehe but it's gonna be a way-too-long post ya. So i'll mention another.

6. I want to go to Manhattan, USA. Just to witness the real urbs feeling & tasting Dominique Ansel's cronut i just watched on food network this morning! Hehe.
7. Jökulsárlón Glacial Lagoon, Iceland. To die for.
8. Santorini, Greece. Udah nonton Sisterhood of the Travelling Pants? Man.. :(
9. Arizona, USA. The Great Canyon.. is an art of the earth. Siapa yang gak mau?
10. Ini bukan yang terakhir, tapi justru first bucket list banget, apalagi buat setiap muslim. Iya. Mekkah :')


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week 1: meet my best friend

9:11 PM

52 weeks challenge: meet my best friend



He's basically everyone's bestfriend.
Kita pertama kali ketemu di SMP. Dia anak mutasi yang baru dateng di semester 2 dan langsung ikut ekskul GAP. So many friends of mine that had a crush on him, katanya sih ganteng. Don't judge a book by its cover ya teman temaaan.. karena ternyata, dia ganteng dalemnya juga. Sumpah. Jangan ngapung Syid.

Kita pertama deket sejak masuk GAP. Kemanapun bareng Rasyid sama Alem selama GAP. Ngajarin ade kelas bareng soal basic photography (dengan skill hasil ngoprek & knowledge asal google wkwk). Inget ga sih kita pernah ikut lomba tentang pentingnya baca buku--mulai dari ngoprek buku di perpus sampe levitasi depan tobel-- dan jingkrak jingkrak seneng banget begitu tau kita disebut jadi finalis, tapi akhirnya sedih karena gak menang? Hfff. Terus waktu kita ikut LFI dan berdoa abis abisan, walaupun akhirnya gagal juga. 

Rasyid partner aku kemana-mana. He's somebody that i would call or text when something happens. Misal, duh mendadak pengen bebek slamet --i'd call him instantly buat nemenin makan. Lagi bete abis pengen maki-maki, dia pasti jadi korban marahnya aku di line.. dan setelah aku beres ngebacot, he always respond with wise words & calms me down.

He knew my flaws. But yet, he stays.

Dia partner makan aku & lita!!! Kita selalu makan tiap ngumpul & inseparable abis.

He cares about everyone & never breaks promises. Alim & sholeh banget, walaupun temen-temennya kafir semua! He's the greatest bestfriend ever and i'm way so lucky for having him these 5 years. He leads me into a better person everyday. I've never been happier and more grateful for having a friend like him. He never embaraased about who i truly am & all my flaws. Everyone would love him for his sincerity & kindness.

Thank God, You sent me the greatest bestfriend i've ever had.

Happy 17th birthday, mate!