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dear people

12:37 AM

i'm sorry for moments where i'm unconciously (and conciously) being such a self-centered, complicated, unstable, moody, blunt, annoying, cold-hearted, bad person. truth is i'm still struggling to deal with my own mind and seeking peace out of it

late night thoughts

00.09 questions

12:09 AM

when do you know very sure that you're in love; and how do you know that you actually love them, not with the idea of being with them?

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best thing i could share

11:59 PM

as i am writing this, i'm beginning to think that everyone has their own special thing to share with their loved ones. i spend quite a lot of time to think about mine. some people i know would share their passwords, their deepest secrets, their songs, their favorite food's last bite, their dark past, or their weird intimate fantasies. i, on the other hand, think that the best/worse thing i could give to anyone i've fond of is.. space?

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in case of boredom: don't break glass.

12:09 AM

i happened to have a chance of getting out of responsibilities for the whole month and staying at home. my belovedddd home. and i just know i can't spending a whole frikkin' valuable month by doing nothing. so i just made a list of emergency intervention in case of boredom strikes. 

- learn about gardening
- makin portfolios of my photographs
- nempel nempelin poster di dinding kamar biar gak bosenin
- making time capsule!! consist of some photos of friends & i, letters, valuable lil things, and hide it somewhere in my house
- write a letter to myself, 10 years from now
- kirim postcard lewat pos
- main ke kineruku
- main ke toko buku
- ngelukis lagi
- coba main piano lagi
- buka buka lemari di rumah. just because; kadang ada barang barang bagus yang kesembunyi
- learn how to sew
- lari sore di brigif
- shop for homeware supplies
- dengerin podcast
- shop flowers

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the simplest, best thing in my life

11:52 PM

sometimes the best thing in life you (or i) can get is as simple as having some space of my own. not seeing people. not talking to people. being gone for awhile. staying in my bedroom, wearing my favorite old t-shirt and boxer, listening to Generationals and The Radio Dept, re-reading my old books or rewatching classic movies, mumbling and dancing awkwardly without anybody watching.

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#playlist: late night drive

9:20 PM

i wish i could rewind some particular nights. as for me, those nights mostly consist of late-night driving sessions. post-concert & nasgor kambing bareng dida, post-camden dan gultik bareng nisa lini tania arin, kedampar nyetir tanpa arah nungguin kakak gue lembur buat balik ke bandung bareng ivan, post-tragedi nenek bareng cupang (temen-temen SMA gue), balik ke bandung dan kejebak macet sampe pagi yang dihabisin dengan full karaoke melly goeslaw bareng lita & salsa, dan yang paling recent, kedampar sampe pagi di pondok indah post-avenger&taichan bareng damar & having 4am convos dari perkara idup sampe ngomongin episode warkop dki mana yang paling seru. those little things are things worth repeated. even mumbling to the songs on the tape feels more fun and different than usual... atau perasaan gue aja sih. mungkin itu juga yang bikin gue lebih seneng balik ke bandung malem hari, walaupun gue cuma sendiri. late-night driving alone for me is a great time to contemplate and think about things or just simply another way to have a me-time session. when it comes to late night-drive, i have a particular playlist consist of songs which i consider ENAK BANGET DAN BEDA AJA RASANYA kalo didengerin malem-malem pas lagi nyetir! and because i'm such a generous person i'd like to share my late-night drive playlist :)

1. 13 - Lany
2. Crowded Places - Banks
3. Let Me - Zayn
4. Nobody - Leisure, Goldlink
5. You Should Know - Samuel Larsen
6. Melebur Semesta - Sal Priadi
7. High and Dry - Radiohead
8. Something Good Can Work - Two Door Cinema Club
9. True Love - Elephant Kind
10. Find - Shallou, Kasbo
11. Your Shirt - Chelsea Cutler
12. For You To Be Here - Tom Rosenthal
13. Home - Bruno Major
14. It Ain't Wrong Loving You - Honne
15. Sleepover - Hayley Kiyoko
16. Shore - Daniela Andrade
17. Fools - Troye Sivan
18. Sink In - Amy Shark
19. iT's YoU - Zayn
20. Previous - Kevin Garrett
21. Elisa's Theme - Alexander Desplat

lala bohang said

5:59 PM



we continue to pick the wrong path, taste the wrong love, cause pain to other people, make wrong decisions, break our own hearts a couple of times, ruin our lives --to finally find our way back home,

where it's safe

where we can walk around naked