i hate that sometimes i hardly live like a normal teenager who's doing really great on socializing. to be just click and fit with everyone else wherever they are, to make friends on every circles easily, to be confident in front of everybody. i talked to God a lot, saying that i'm sorry for being so disgraceful bout myself. like, EVERYDAY, i blame myself for having low self-esteem, for being an introvert, for being a socially awkward or somehow being a jerk anti-social.